StudentNurse
Friday, June 30, 2006
Happy Viernes
It's FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!Yaay! The mark of yet another week gone. What did i do this week? anything different from last week? did i grow some more? did i do some things better? what was different? I'm the kind that answers to "how's it going?" by saying "you know the drill, same shit, different day" now i'm thinking thats gotta stop somehow. Each day is a new day, different from the previous, even tomorrow won't be anything like today, it's what i've assurance of, tomorrow i know not of. I should stop worrying that life is ending, that another week's gone by and try to not forget that life will never start so i have to make the best of it now.
I was thinking about the year, so far. The months gone by, how it's been. It's the year where things have hit me hard but just as i've had my share of bad times/days, the joy and good times that i've had are twice and over. So many good things have happened to me. I digress. All this should be said at end of the year, if this journal still exists then.
I'm off to doc's in 38mins, my appt's @ 10am i want to get there early and get it over with. I'm not sure i'll be working this weekend, would love too but something's(read someone) in the way.I've to work my schedule around that someone, not so good, but some things we make a part of our lives we gotta learn to live wit right?? so yeah, its not what i'd want but i gotta make-do-wit-it
I spoke to my yoda yesternight, see, see he knows how to help me live a day at a time and stop projecting. I love him and thank God for his been in my life. I spoke to my other true friend last night, i'm pissed off wit him, will tell him today. What i've to say might not make him happy but still he's gotta know!
Thanking God for today...
I was thinking about the year, so far. The months gone by, how it's been. It's the year where things have hit me hard but just as i've had my share of bad times/days, the joy and good times that i've had are twice and over. So many good things have happened to me. I digress. All this should be said at end of the year, if this journal still exists then.
I'm off to doc's in 38mins, my appt's @ 10am i want to get there early and get it over with. I'm not sure i'll be working this weekend, would love too but something's(read someone) in the way.I've to work my schedule around that someone, not so good, but some things we make a part of our lives we gotta learn to live wit right?? so yeah, its not what i'd want but i gotta make-do-wit-it
I spoke to my yoda yesternight, see, see he knows how to help me live a day at a time and stop projecting. I love him and thank God for his been in my life. I spoke to my other true friend last night, i'm pissed off wit him, will tell him today. What i've to say might not make him happy but still he's gotta know!
Thanking God for today...
Labels: Pre Nursing School
posted by Student Nurse at 6:51 AM
Thursday, June 29, 2006
El jueves
I'm home very bored. ggggrrrrhhh! I just woke up and i can it's going to be one long day! I went to doc's yesterday but need to go back tomorrow @ 10am to have some tests run on me. This just plain sucks if you ask me but then again what do i know??
Tell you what I feel like doing? I'd say be left alone, but then again you see i'm always alone. I feel like going out to the beach, it's crazy hot where i am. I want to walk on the beach tonight when it's cooled down a tad, my mp3 earphones plugged so deep into my ears and just reminiscence. But, knowing me i won't do it, not for a good reason, but just because i won't. But i'll go out running. Running is like my own self-prescribed dose of therapy. It gives me calm, clears my mind, puts my soul and heart at peace, quietens the evil twin sister who resides within in me.
Gotta pay alil money when i go back to doc's tomorrow, not as bad as i thought and for that i'm very graetful to God.
I called work yesterday told them to give me some hours but they seem to not have anything. I'm still waiting on the other place i put an application to, i pray they call me soon and give me the convenient hours i asked for, God i need your favor...
Tell you what I feel like doing? I'd say be left alone, but then again you see i'm always alone. I feel like going out to the beach, it's crazy hot where i am. I want to walk on the beach tonight when it's cooled down a tad, my mp3 earphones plugged so deep into my ears and just reminiscence. But, knowing me i won't do it, not for a good reason, but just because i won't. But i'll go out running. Running is like my own self-prescribed dose of therapy. It gives me calm, clears my mind, puts my soul and heart at peace, quietens the evil twin sister who resides within in me.
Gotta pay alil money when i go back to doc's tomorrow, not as bad as i thought and for that i'm very graetful to God.
I called work yesterday told them to give me some hours but they seem to not have anything. I'm still waiting on the other place i put an application to, i pray they call me soon and give me the convenient hours i asked for, God i need your favor...
Labels: Pre Nursing School
posted by Student Nurse at 9:35 AM
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Yoda
My today Yoda is one of my few true friends. He always seems to do the trick, make me laugh even when i'm in the dumps. So to, He, thanks! *wink*
I've been in the office since 7:15am this morning, yes i can be that good. Oh well not really considering half the time i've been doing my own things, which is wrong, wrong. I got here and worked on some project i had and got that out.Today I work half-day plus I've been responding to some e-mails and updating info on the databases so I still got some work done.
I faxed my P.E.F to J and guess what? It's wrong, I need to go back to doc's and get it re-signed, that's just sad but i hope and actually pray i don't have to pay any amount of money for her to sign it because i don't have the money, seriously right now i'm way beyond broke. A class of my own *shakes head in pity* well i ain't gonna be throwing any pity parties soon coz they ain't gonn do jerk for me so better to hope and believe.
I ordered my books, they should come in the mail by next week.
This morning I did some blog rounds. I found three fascinating blogs . The most amazing thing, is i happened onto some blogs like mine. I mean entirely on being broke and in debts. Well it's not that much consoling to know there are many of us out there but there's a feeling that comes with reading them and to know they're living it and trying to make it better and not to mention that they even put up how they're progressing, is AweSooome.
I'm off till Monday and that's when I start H.A. i pray me well (go me!). I gotta come work till 3pm then leave for class yea the hassle is on. I hope I can get some hours, tonight, thursday/friday/saturday/sunday. I'm down for anything!
Today's Lesson: I'll write down my every single expense. Every time i buy something, i'll save the receipt and write it in my organizer/notebook just for that.
SIDEBAR: I'm a very frugal person in nature. It's in the genes, my moms, she would just not let me be. However, I eat out a lot seeing as I don't cook, only because i don't have the time and to think of putting so much effort for a one-person meal, the thought, it kills me. I buy a box of 3-min instant lunches. My other true friend is talking me into trying tuna.
I'm becoming better because I've never carried them to work for lunch but for the past 2 weeks I have. Yaay! It's just as good a meal as any other. Oh well most definitely not the yummiest/healthiest but the thought that i've eaten something, regardless of what it is keeps me going....
I've been in the office since 7:15am this morning, yes i can be that good. Oh well not really considering half the time i've been doing my own things, which is wrong, wrong. I got here and worked on some project i had and got that out.Today I work half-day plus I've been responding to some e-mails and updating info on the databases so I still got some work done.
I faxed my P.E.F to J and guess what? It's wrong, I need to go back to doc's and get it re-signed, that's just sad but i hope and actually pray i don't have to pay any amount of money for her to sign it because i don't have the money, seriously right now i'm way beyond broke. A class of my own *shakes head in pity* well i ain't gonna be throwing any pity parties soon coz they ain't gonn do jerk for me so better to hope and believe.
I ordered my books, they should come in the mail by next week.
This morning I did some blog rounds. I found three fascinating blogs . The most amazing thing, is i happened onto some blogs like mine. I mean entirely on being broke and in debts. Well it's not that much consoling to know there are many of us out there but there's a feeling that comes with reading them and to know they're living it and trying to make it better and not to mention that they even put up how they're progressing, is AweSooome.
I'm off till Monday and that's when I start H.A. i pray me well (go me!). I gotta come work till 3pm then leave for class yea the hassle is on. I hope I can get some hours, tonight, thursday/friday/saturday/sunday. I'm down for anything!
Today's Lesson: I'll write down my every single expense. Every time i buy something, i'll save the receipt and write it in my organizer/notebook just for that.
SIDEBAR: I'm a very frugal person in nature. It's in the genes, my moms, she would just not let me be. However, I eat out a lot seeing as I don't cook, only because i don't have the time and to think of putting so much effort for a one-person meal, the thought, it kills me. I buy a box of 3-min instant lunches. My other true friend is talking me into trying tuna.
I'm becoming better because I've never carried them to work for lunch but for the past 2 weeks I have. Yaay! It's just as good a meal as any other. Oh well most definitely not the yummiest/healthiest but the thought that i've eaten something, regardless of what it is keeps me going....
Labels: Pre Nursing School
posted by Student Nurse at 11:20 AM
Books
I ordered my books this morning, thank you God! One item down the list, yippie, the joy. Will fax in the clearance, hope it works because if i have to go back to my doc's it's gonna get me distressed. *talking to self* "someone, prayers?"
Labels: Pre Nursing School
posted by Student Nurse at 7:45 AM
Therapy
One session of therapy! It's as good as happy hour without beer or the dudes. If you find a good doc, it's smooth sailing , as happy and happy.
Labels: Pre Nursing School
posted by Student Nurse at 7:43 AM
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Life
I've had so many secrets in my life one more won't hurt. Which is to keep this online journal to myself.
Currently, I'm going through alot in life. I start nursing school in less than 2 weeks. I'm excited but God the stress that comes with it is making me think therapy seriously. I wish I had the money for therapy, I'd find me a good doc and do it but if i had that much money to even get into therapy I wouldn't have these many thoughts pushing me towards it in the first place. Oh well it's life
I'm starting this journal as a mark of the start of my nursing school. I'm seeking guidance from God. Yes, I believe in God bigtime! A while back you'd tell without me pointing it out but now may be you can't unless you really know me, which no one does. Anyhow, all my trust/faith/hope is in God to see me through nursing, He brought me to it and i believe he is faithful enough to see me through it. It's what I've always wanted to do.
I'm as broke as they come. Which reminds me I just read somewhere that young and broke are so similiar they could be synonyms LOL very funny and not a tad true but hey we all got our own prerogatives or is it perceptions?? I'm broke, i need so much money right now. There's a difference between needing money and needing money. Now i realise I've always needed money, just to have some in my a/c or hit the mall, just for no real need. This is the brokest I'm yet to be in my life. And now i need money, need it for reals. I need it because there's just stuff I can't skip doing, compulsory stuff, things to be done, real things and now is when i don't have it.
I've very few friends in my life. Mostly male. I could very much ask them for the money but i don't want to. No, it's not pride. I love my independence. I live,eat and sleep that feeling that comes with knowing i did it on my own, my own achievement. May be now
's not the time to think that but God I don't want to go around asking for money like I didn't know I was going to do this. I'm so stressing out, adrenalin rushes won't let me be, my head, neck, i feel tired, my whole body aches....
Currently, I'm going through alot in life. I start nursing school in less than 2 weeks. I'm excited but God the stress that comes with it is making me think therapy seriously. I wish I had the money for therapy, I'd find me a good doc and do it but if i had that much money to even get into therapy I wouldn't have these many thoughts pushing me towards it in the first place. Oh well it's life
I'm starting this journal as a mark of the start of my nursing school. I'm seeking guidance from God. Yes, I believe in God bigtime! A while back you'd tell without me pointing it out but now may be you can't unless you really know me, which no one does. Anyhow, all my trust/faith/hope is in God to see me through nursing, He brought me to it and i believe he is faithful enough to see me through it. It's what I've always wanted to do.
I'm as broke as they come. Which reminds me I just read somewhere that young and broke are so similiar they could be synonyms LOL very funny and not a tad true but hey we all got our own prerogatives or is it perceptions?? I'm broke, i need so much money right now. There's a difference between needing money and needing money. Now i realise I've always needed money, just to have some in my a/c or hit the mall, just for no real need. This is the brokest I'm yet to be in my life. And now i need money, need it for reals. I need it because there's just stuff I can't skip doing, compulsory stuff, things to be done, real things and now is when i don't have it.
I've very few friends in my life. Mostly male. I could very much ask them for the money but i don't want to. No, it's not pride. I love my independence. I live,eat and sleep that feeling that comes with knowing i did it on my own, my own achievement. May be now
's not the time to think that but God I don't want to go around asking for money like I didn't know I was going to do this. I'm so stressing out, adrenalin rushes won't let me be, my head, neck, i feel tired, my whole body aches....
Labels: Pre Nursing School
posted by Student Nurse at 4:43 PM
