StudentNurse
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Life
I've had so many secrets in my life one more won't hurt. Which is to keep this online journal to myself.
Currently, I'm going through alot in life. I start nursing school in less than 2 weeks. I'm excited but God the stress that comes with it is making me think therapy seriously. I wish I had the money for therapy, I'd find me a good doc and do it but if i had that much money to even get into therapy I wouldn't have these many thoughts pushing me towards it in the first place. Oh well it's life
I'm starting this journal as a mark of the start of my nursing school. I'm seeking guidance from God. Yes, I believe in God bigtime! A while back you'd tell without me pointing it out but now may be you can't unless you really know me, which no one does. Anyhow, all my trust/faith/hope is in God to see me through nursing, He brought me to it and i believe he is faithful enough to see me through it. It's what I've always wanted to do.
I'm as broke as they come. Which reminds me I just read somewhere that young and broke are so similiar they could be synonyms LOL very funny and not a tad true but hey we all got our own prerogatives or is it perceptions?? I'm broke, i need so much money right now. There's a difference between needing money and needing money. Now i realise I've always needed money, just to have some in my a/c or hit the mall, just for no real need. This is the brokest I'm yet to be in my life. And now i need money, need it for reals. I need it because there's just stuff I can't skip doing, compulsory stuff, things to be done, real things and now is when i don't have it.
I've very few friends in my life. Mostly male. I could very much ask them for the money but i don't want to. No, it's not pride. I love my independence. I live,eat and sleep that feeling that comes with knowing i did it on my own, my own achievement. May be now
's not the time to think that but God I don't want to go around asking for money like I didn't know I was going to do this. I'm so stressing out, adrenalin rushes won't let me be, my head, neck, i feel tired, my whole body aches....
Currently, I'm going through alot in life. I start nursing school in less than 2 weeks. I'm excited but God the stress that comes with it is making me think therapy seriously. I wish I had the money for therapy, I'd find me a good doc and do it but if i had that much money to even get into therapy I wouldn't have these many thoughts pushing me towards it in the first place. Oh well it's life
I'm starting this journal as a mark of the start of my nursing school. I'm seeking guidance from God. Yes, I believe in God bigtime! A while back you'd tell without me pointing it out but now may be you can't unless you really know me, which no one does. Anyhow, all my trust/faith/hope is in God to see me through nursing, He brought me to it and i believe he is faithful enough to see me through it. It's what I've always wanted to do.
I'm as broke as they come. Which reminds me I just read somewhere that young and broke are so similiar they could be synonyms LOL very funny and not a tad true but hey we all got our own prerogatives or is it perceptions?? I'm broke, i need so much money right now. There's a difference between needing money and needing money. Now i realise I've always needed money, just to have some in my a/c or hit the mall, just for no real need. This is the brokest I'm yet to be in my life. And now i need money, need it for reals. I need it because there's just stuff I can't skip doing, compulsory stuff, things to be done, real things and now is when i don't have it.
I've very few friends in my life. Mostly male. I could very much ask them for the money but i don't want to. No, it's not pride. I love my independence. I live,eat and sleep that feeling that comes with knowing i did it on my own, my own achievement. May be now
's not the time to think that but God I don't want to go around asking for money like I didn't know I was going to do this. I'm so stressing out, adrenalin rushes won't let me be, my head, neck, i feel tired, my whole body aches....
Labels: Pre Nursing School
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