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Sunday, February 01, 2009
January Re-visted
I'm typing this from a friend's couch. We just came back from church and I might add the service was great and that number, Majesty (by Delirious), did the trick :)
It's the 1st of February otherwise dubbed as the 43rd (?) superbowl? And let it be known I'm rooting for the Steelers. The church told the story because all levels were crowded and it took us a while to actually find a place for two to sit. Because everyone was trying to get church out of the way so that they could party for the rest of the day. I'm polling for the Steelers because they beat the Chargers and I want to know we were beat by the absolute best. So go, Steelers, bring it home!!!
January was tough. Wow. Nursing research dealt me blow after blow. I was up most days and nights doing and revising papers and endless assignments. According, to my instructor (who absolutely loves me) and how do I know this ? because after every phone conversation she tells me "I love you, kiddo".
So how then did she push me so hard? I figure it was to make me the best nurse. I'm biased as I type this because I just found out I passed the class with a B-. But during those days and nights I labored it was not funny at all. I clearly recall coming home one morning and going into my closest and crying out my frustration and confusion amidst my shoes and clothes. It was too much to bear. I later emerged and called my moms who encouraged me and reminded me she was coming to see me in June and would I be strong because no one has it easy during a research class.
The only thing, in spite of all my efforts I didn't seem to be doing anything right in my instructor's books. It was exhausting. At some point I wanted to throw up my hands, throw in the towel and quit. But I'm a fighter and I don't go down easily. So, I pressed on, soldiered on until last night. And last night as I crawled under the covers at home in my bed for like the first time this year (no exaggeration) I breathed in a sigh of relief because I knew it had all finally come to a close. The end was here. In my bff's words it was "a wrap".
Funny because I was on the phone w/the bff and suddenly had an incoming call from my instructor. What was it this time? had I screwed up the final exam? My mind went back to the previous day, Saturday, when I had spent most of my day at the library glued to the computer and taken 3 hours to take the final exam. So it couldn't be that right? because I recalled putting in as much detail as was possible. Oh then it hit me what it was. It had to be the revised journal and part III I had just turned in a couple of minutes ago. I wasn't going to pick up the call I told the bff. For once I wanted to go to bed and not have nightmares of a paper full of red (the instructor's corrections) or an in-box full of e-mails all titled "URGENT" from my instructor. Yes, for this once I wanted to go to sleep with no worries and that could only be facilitated by not picking up the call or checking my e--mail again that night. I could not imagine revising one more paper before she graded my final to indicate I had officially failed the class and I needed to do some make-up work to pass the class. Therefore, I pulled the covers over my head and got my beauty sleep for the first time since the year began. And today? I feel so revitalized, recouped and just ready to take on the world. Tomorrow? well tomorrow I start NSG 440, which is officially my last nursing course. I'm overly thankful and full of gratitude to God for bringing me this far. Oh what I'd do without Him?
Current superbowl score: Steelers 20
Cardinals 7
GO, STEELERS!!!!
Mood: contemplative & happy
Songs playing in mind: Majesty-Delirious
Games People Play-Inner Circle
Single ladies/Put a ring on it-Beyonce
It's the 1st of February otherwise dubbed as the 43rd (?) superbowl? And let it be known I'm rooting for the Steelers. The church told the story because all levels were crowded and it took us a while to actually find a place for two to sit. Because everyone was trying to get church out of the way so that they could party for the rest of the day. I'm polling for the Steelers because they beat the Chargers and I want to know we were beat by the absolute best. So go, Steelers, bring it home!!!
January was tough. Wow. Nursing research dealt me blow after blow. I was up most days and nights doing and revising papers and endless assignments. According, to my instructor (who absolutely loves me) and how do I know this ? because after every phone conversation she tells me "I love you, kiddo".
So how then did she push me so hard? I figure it was to make me the best nurse. I'm biased as I type this because I just found out I passed the class with a B-. But during those days and nights I labored it was not funny at all. I clearly recall coming home one morning and going into my closest and crying out my frustration and confusion amidst my shoes and clothes. It was too much to bear. I later emerged and called my moms who encouraged me and reminded me she was coming to see me in June and would I be strong because no one has it easy during a research class.
The only thing, in spite of all my efforts I didn't seem to be doing anything right in my instructor's books. It was exhausting. At some point I wanted to throw up my hands, throw in the towel and quit. But I'm a fighter and I don't go down easily. So, I pressed on, soldiered on until last night. And last night as I crawled under the covers at home in my bed for like the first time this year (no exaggeration) I breathed in a sigh of relief because I knew it had all finally come to a close. The end was here. In my bff's words it was "a wrap".
Funny because I was on the phone w/the bff and suddenly had an incoming call from my instructor. What was it this time? had I screwed up the final exam? My mind went back to the previous day, Saturday, when I had spent most of my day at the library glued to the computer and taken 3 hours to take the final exam. So it couldn't be that right? because I recalled putting in as much detail as was possible. Oh then it hit me what it was. It had to be the revised journal and part III I had just turned in a couple of minutes ago. I wasn't going to pick up the call I told the bff. For once I wanted to go to bed and not have nightmares of a paper full of red (the instructor's corrections) or an in-box full of e-mails all titled "URGENT" from my instructor. Yes, for this once I wanted to go to sleep with no worries and that could only be facilitated by not picking up the call or checking my e--mail again that night. I could not imagine revising one more paper before she graded my final to indicate I had officially failed the class and I needed to do some make-up work to pass the class. Therefore, I pulled the covers over my head and got my beauty sleep for the first time since the year began. And today? I feel so revitalized, recouped and just ready to take on the world. Tomorrow? well tomorrow I start NSG 440, which is officially my last nursing course. I'm overly thankful and full of gratitude to God for bringing me this far. Oh what I'd do without Him?
Current superbowl score: Steelers 20
Cardinals 7
GO, STEELERS!!!!
Mood: contemplative & happy
Songs playing in mind: Majesty-Delirious
Games People Play-Inner Circle
Single ladies/Put a ring on it-Beyonce
Labels: Nursing Research, Nursing School
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